Imagination . . . Changing Everything

"Imagination will often carry us to worlds that never were. But without it we go nowhere."

— Carl Sagan

 

Rita J. King – wrote on 'Shake Up Your Brain: An Inspiration List' April 26^th 2013. I read this on 27^th morning. Wow, the whole article was so inspiring that I took a print of the same, also save on my system.

My Inspiration word, 'Shake Up Your Brain'. 

 

Today is Special to me. My whole outlook to work is moving in a different angle today. God's grace. Planets luck?? I dont really know on that. My mood is good till now. I feel fresh today. I feel to work, rather to perform. (I really love performing, hate sitting idle, love being a busy body, likes hearing that too ). 

 

During my journey to office I was thinking for an effective method or a difference in my work performance. Anyway I feel fresh, I start with reading 'The Hindu', especially the religious section, though its religious (Hindu Epic based) I feel its more spiritually grounded, to me we need to be spiritual rather than religious or caste based! Everytime, I read this column, I feel God care towarsd humanity, his own handy work. God knew always how things would turn up, how world will go on, how this humanity will survive, how negativity may impact, still He gave each of us a free will to do things on our own and manage everything ourselves (yes, definitely through all He finally and initially adjusts us). I feel relieved after today's column. 

 

Relaxed but stationed I sat on my chair, within the limited our team was supposed to perform. There, one by one I listed out today's priorities. Before I start for the day, initialize my process with checking mails, updates, Linkedin (ofcourse!). In LinkedIn I saw Rita J. King's Influencial post - 'Shake Up Your Brain: An Inspiration List'; that title itself is catchy right? Wooh!! Shake Up Baby Shake UP :) I got it, I got my Inspiration for the day. I read it whole, very much enthusiastically. 

 

Daily work. I started with the follow-ups. Finished. I was feeling this energy or the so called positivity in and around me, which transforms our whole outlook. :) My Day went Best!

I searched in between and I found it. 

 

“Do what you love to do and give it your very best. Whether it’s business or baseball, or the theater, or any field. If you don’t love what you’re doing and you can’t give it your best, get out of it. Life is too short. You’ll be an old man before you know it.” – Al Lopez

Sometimes, I feel dumb thinking how many motivational quotes and messages are been said by influential and great thinkers/entrepreneurs. One by one when read and tried to understand, while keep make us wiser and smarter. I am on that way.

Happy Searching :)

Everyday maynot be good, but there is something good in every day. April 26th

With all the challenges I had to my job; my team's performance and my individual performance were on the verge today. Our individual contributions towards productivity are more expected than the input we and resource we have. Still we need to keep our standards and remain in the good books of our management and other active teams. Thinking of all these, I was actually stuck there. Instead of identifying steps to tackle the situation or forming bits of collective ideas to plan the entire course or atleast think on solution, there I was. Stuck as if the road in front of me was completely closed, it was all thunder or storming happening, God!! I dont know. My real problem: closing my eyes, not identifying the opportunity, not understanding what the nature is telling me.

My Job: Client Acquisition & Relationship, Recruitment Administration, Recruitment, Sourcing & Networking, Team Development & Training(when required), Maintain and update Database, Handling Telephonic Interview, Coordinating for Interview/Meetings, Handling Client Accounts, etc, etc.

Our team size is directly inversely proportional to the requirements we handle (higher the requirement, lesser the team). F2F interviews happening for four of our Clients, pending requirements is more than what we can achieve, all these thoughts kept on pressing me from the inside. I felt; 'gone this day'. Nothing nothing good is gonna happen. Evening I have to walk out of office as a bad day spend. How, when, where I was seeing everywhere. This made me sit idle. Deeply hurting. Deeply someone murmuring. I was lost.

Deeply someone murmuring. I slowly started hearing those voices. Something from inside telling me, asking me to get up, move up, look at the task, concentrate. The voice started getting closer. I could now hear that clearly. Glenda, you are doing wrong, open your inner eyes, look through the task, go through the details, try, try to focus, you can do. God wont give you burden that you cannot carry, He knows your capability, He knows you can do it. I felt those words.

Browsers: I slowly started with my routine, opening the tabs on browsers (Firefox & Chrome), where I opened my LinkedIn too. Something though small but caught my eye. An update from my Network (Ketki Shah via NAVEEN THUKRAL) , “Everyday maynot be good, but there is something good in every day”. Ohh is it?? Yes, IT DEFINITELY IS!! Clicked my mind. Changed my perspective for the day. I started off with that. Yes, it defintely did good. Though slowly I started feeling good, to wait for that goodness to happen, as of now I knew it is to happen. That's how another person in a different place, in a different context can affect your mood, how God can use anyone to uplift you. (As I had mentioned in ma previous blog - http://dreamzbigenough.blogspot.in/2013/04/failure-is-simply-opportunity-to-begin.html ) How God can guide you though others, as we all are instruments in his hands.

God has given the spirit of goodness to all. It's all about how we find it and utilize it. Anne Frank (Jewish diarist and aspiring writer, who died of typhus in the Bergen-Belsen concentration camp.) , during her camp days in her diary quoted, “I believe that, in spite of everything, people are really good at heart.” If someone who suffered great hardships like that must say so, then how should our attitude be? Her Dairy was published as Anne Frank-The Diary of a Young Girl. Such a Brave and Lovable lady she was. I dont remember when but during my school days, between some of the Book Festivals I used to attend I bought this book named, “Anne Frank-The Diary of a Young Girl”. I started reading but I in between I didnt find that too interesting and stopped there. Many of ma friends asked to continue, but I never felt for. But today, I feel that its calling me..to continue what I kept pending. Her saying as quoted above made me feel so small. I need to get to know that goodness'.

Yes, there is something good in everyday. Though that touching or calling might be different, still God shows that goodness everywhere, we just need to find it, fix it. The goodness I found today is something much greater than any precious things. It is 'the goodness of the heart'. Anne Frank inspired me today. Her words, that goodness.

Thanks for reading :)

Crab Mentality

Persistance of Crab Mentality still exists?! Yes.

From the start of the civilizations to the end of the world (till the II coming of Christ) people's nature will remain the same, except for the so called reformists/born-agains/spiritual enchanters/generalists. (God only knows human real internal instinct and internal motivations)!!

'Success Pro' people are becoming these days. No matter the effort/skill/experience/knowledge required, all want to grab success/fame/name at the earliest. Nature of "Crab Mentality" (If I can't neither should you) starts from here among few. Pateince is all lost. Patience is the say of the old. Today, now, this very moment things should happen. All by hook or crook. Values are been sort by a few. Everyone wants to be ahead of everyone. Everyone wants to reach their destination as quickly as possible. If people happen to fail in doing so may turn back as repulsive, sometimes may turn as violent and few reach till frustration. This happens becuase either we expect more from us OR we are expecting more from others or there are people out there expecting much greater productivity or performance from us. And when they do not turn according to our expectations we become upset. This can even create enemity or opponents in certain situations. Solution, drop the expectations or give some time things might change on its own, then you will be surprised where your anger and frustration vanished to.

I myself, feel sometimes frustrated. Sometimes between anger or sometimes nowhere. All becuase of mine expectations of others. All becuase of others expectations on me. All because of the actions of myself with the expectations of my soul. Always concidence occurs. Always expectations happens. Always somethings fall short. Always somethings great. Few moments when you feel that proud, and few moments you feel that lost. We are humans.

In this race many forget the path that they came from. The lessons taught. The help received. The people who guided them. Race is truely won if played well. Today people are looking to win for the moment, living just for the moment. In this process the are stamping on the lessons, the people who once guided them, just for the sudden fame, people are not bothered on anything else. Few cant stand to see others winning, let it be someone who stood for them, let it be someone with whom they cant compete, let it be someone who is ready to help them again and again.

People of these days.

Colleagues of today.

Friends of today.

Lovers of today.

Families of today.

Partners of today.

Ofcourse, there are exceptions. :)

Truth and Sincerity wins, though not fast or soon.

But later but valued,

But late but respected,

But lately but accepted.

Will remain forever.

I hope it is not that late these people identify where they stand and how they did things. I wish let their eyes be opened and understand their play. Let them start learning things and applying on their own rather than running after others and playing games with them.

This is dedicated to my friend, who was outwitted by her assistant after a whole lot of game plan. 

 

Happiness, Goals and Related Things

“If you want to live a happy life, tie it to a goal, not to people or things.” – Albert Einstein

Happiness is a mental or emotional state of well-being characterized by positive or pleasant emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy. Scientifically, it's a variety of biological, psychological, religious, and philosophical approaches have striven to define happiness and identify its sources. Philosophers and religious thinkers often define happiness in terms of living a good life, or flourishing, rather than simply as an emotion. Spiritually speaking, as Sir.William Law once said, 'He who has learned to pray has learned the greatest secret of a holy and happy life'. I would say, here the Universal law of nature would apply; Perspective & Culture – its all individualistic in nature. Similarly, the state of happiness will also be intrepreted according to different contexts.

In the normal walk of life, we tend to look to people or material things to value success or measure happiness. Success may be associated to a level of social status, achievement of a goal or the opposite of failure. We forget; it should always be looked within ourself. Comparison must be made, but with our past experience, past performance or with the aim/goal we had set for ourself combined with the goal our superior or next in authority might have put across. All with care and proper self-respect. Self analysis and self - motivation is the best of all Reviews, which can lead you to self growth and development. This process sometimes may make you feel proud. Make you feel who you are, where you stand, where you can go, what you can really achieve. And yes, how smart you are!

But, I woould support to Sir.Carl Jung, 'Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word happy would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness. It is far better to take things as they come along with patience and equanimity'. This thought can be kept in our mind in occasions when we find ourselves running below our performance, distance between our current status and our goal widens. Little by little we can focuz more and journey our way towards our goal.

In the course of our 'persuit of goal', sometimes unknowingly our focuz of goal will slightly shift to people around us, things that are connected to the goal or related to us. Unless we take control of those situations, we may get away from our persuit of that real happiness, the persuit of that goal. We may choose to keep specific intervals to review our goal and update our whole path. Another matter to be always kept in our minds is rhat difficulties keep increasing the nearer our path is towards the goal. This can be better understood if we turn back and think upon our lives-situations when we had thought to turn back from where we were heading to, maybe we withdrew. Alas, then we realize how close we were in reaching our destination, we should have followed, we should have kept trying. Right?. Yep.

In all our persuits for happiness, we need to focuz on our goal. Forget what others are saying. Forget what history has taught us. Forget what your past experience were (but taking lessons from all). Your door to happiness is open, but we need to pass through it.

Much of our individual self-esteem is really drawn from our perception, of how other people look upon us on our behaviour and the work we do. We tend to go after ur friends or counsellors opinion in checking whether you are going in right direction, your performance is well, are you been valued, etc. We are always doubtful on where we stand. Are we really happy? Were our decisions correct? This is wrong! You need to focuz on yourself. You need to understand yourself and your goals. Then act. With all faith, you may continue your persuit.

In the words of Dr. Timothy Sharp (Chief Happiness Officer);

If you're really happy you'll also know because...

• you'll have a clear sense of who you are, what you want to achieve and how you're going to achieve it

• you'll have energy and zest, enthusiasm and hope for life

• the future will look bright and you'll be grateful for the present

• you'll spend more of your time focusing on and utilising what you're best at (rather than dwelling on what you're not so good at)

• you'll enjoy spending time with others as they enjoy spending time with you

In short, we need to become strong in spirits. Means mentally. We need to direct ourselves in all our persuits, you can accept advices from your loved ones, but we need to make sure we are not following their persuits. We must keep reminding us, where we need to go, where our happiness lies. Happy Happiness :)

Failure is simply the opportunity to begin again - Conti... of Transition

“Failure is simply the opportunity to begin again, this time more intelligently”-Henry Ford

Henry Ford [In College Days we used call him Henry Appachen(meaning grandfather) whose theories we had learn] was an American industrialist, the founder of the Ford Motor Company and sponsor of the development of the assembly line technique of mass production. He is credited with "Fordism": mass production of inexpensive goods coupled with high wages for workers(how many industrialist are ready to pay high wages that too for workers?). Ford had a global vision, with consumerism as the key to peace. Ford left most of his vast wealth to the Ford Foundation but arranged for his family to control the company permanently (that is one of the best decisions at-least to me).

Sir Henry Ford, quoted this from his own life (all quotes can be given credit from their own old experiences) but this is always admired and followed by all – all those who want to succeed in life!. We can understand from his own experience; After two unsuccessful attempts to establish a company to manufacture automobiles, the Ford Motor Company was incorporated in 1903 with Henry Ford as vice-president and chief engineer. It means that great Person never accepted failure, he kept on his energy running and built on invention. 'Failure is simply the opportunity to begin again, this time more intelligently', yes he did it with all intelligence, and still his vision is alive.

This was my update on LinkedIn (in.linkedin.com/pub/glenda-grace-john/8/a/322) for the day (Apr 23rd). I don't know why or what made me to add that as an inspiration for the day, but yes, I did it. Maybe someone out there, within my network might have required that (as there are days when someone's update from a different part of the world inspires from inside-out and chills me). There are days in our lives when we feel God is speaking to us, someone is motivating us, nature itself is helping us. To me, yes lots of instance when the nature intervened  God's care I felt; in moments when my spirit went down, my soul felt to wander, my mind went out of control; someone out there speaking to me, someone's message in my inbox (consoling but related to my situation), someone speaking to other but I am made to hear, etc. Etc. All ways, my God working for me. All the time, round the clock, throughout the year.

Hence, my actions should also be contributed in a likewise manner. I admit there are times when I may have had situations when I was kinda rude/authoritative but always there were real reasons behind that behaviour (But who cares those reasons of others/real causes Right?).

Failure is simply the opportunity to begin again. We are often taken backward instead of trying forward after a small glimpse of failure. Do not be afraid to fail because only through failure do we learn to succeed. We need to learn taking chances, making mistakes, facing risks. That’s how we are supposed to grow. Like a child's development, it is from stage to stage, that's how real growth, real development, real success happens. Pain nourishes our courage, fuels our thoughts and molds our attitude. We have to fail in order to practice being brave. Keep trying and trying. But, most importantly believing in self. Yes, Believing in Yourself, where the power lies!!

Let your Spirit Live...Let it be Free...Live your Live the Way you have Dreamed,..You had Imagined :)

All in a Different Perspective - A transition

For Me: Inspiration for 2013: Blessing and Encouraging Myself :)

“The test of courage comes when we are in the minority. The test of tolerance comes when we are in the majority.” ~ Ralph W Sockman

Ralph Washington Sockman (October 1, 1889 – August 29, 1970) was the senior pastor of Christ Church (United Methodist) in New York City, United States and also termed as "the number one Protestant radio pastor of the U.S. ...rated by volume of fan mail"(1946). 

He might have referred to 'minority' and 'majority' based on religious or spiritual insights during the reforms were happening during his time. 

True. But, I strongly believe that Pr.Ralph might've given this statement so that the humanity can think upon his words even on the strangest situations too. Anyways I've got this inspiration hence, can be applied to our daily lives, especially during our times of decision making. 

People of these days are mostly cowards!! (including me on certain occasions as thinking back on few relative stand I'd taken I find myself a Coward). Most of us have the desire inside us, dream to achieve and go ahead in life, take life's decisions concerning the self, bring out the ideas in us, speak and do what our inner self says, support certain causes, etc. etc. etc. But, in reality how many of us are bold enough to come out and face these? How many of us are strong enough to be courageous when in Minority, when no one is standing with us? Very few, right? Even I have kept my mouth shut in many situations when I should have raised my voice!! 

TRANSITION

The CHalLeNgE:  

Faced with the prospect of change, most of us (students, teachers, professionals, entrepreneurs(Seriously few are so), retired, farmers alike) will feel both a sense of loss at the end of a stage in our life, and also feelings of trepidation, excitement and sometimes fear. All these combined emotions will act as drivers for our behaviour. When we are faced with an ‘out-of-my-comfort-zone’ experience, it is all too easy that our natural fight mechanisms take over.

Transition works mainly with individual change. But if people get to feeling like they can only make changes on their own at home, they will soon lose heart unless they are very deeply committed. Yes, we should be deeply committed to each task that we undertake, whether internal development or external commitments. 

I don't know why, but sometimes I feel that we all have to change, a transition is required of all by all. Don't you remember a situation when you felt, you shouldn't have said that, acted like that OR she/he should have been more helpful, he/she should have been more cooperative, their words should have been with more politeness? Yes, we all feel that. Means, there are lots of expectations revolving around us - internally and externally. Hence, every time we face challenges, we must think twice or even more and act/react. Even our decisions should be from our heart combined with the practical possibilities. 

In our deepest sacrifices or deepest hardships how many are around us?? Do you think all your so called dear and near ones come to your rescue/support you/guide you??  

In our happiest moments or celebrations how many will come and share their joy with us? Of course all?? I strongly oppose. In both he situations you will find few. Not able to accept? But, its true. If your happiest moment/celebration is all in accordance with the society norms, your religious customs,  your family virtues then, ONLY THEN people will come to share that joy and celebrate! If you find your happiness in taking bold steps, chasing your only dreams, how many will support you? Even your so called Best Friends(Always includes exceptions) would say' you have gone mad', you are doing foolishness, I cant support you! 

I still remember a conversation with one of my so-called Best Friend, we were just talking when she said in advance, 'Glenda don't call me if that happens, I cant stand for that'. I was shocked to hear that. Firstly I had not thought into what she had said, secondly I was not going to ask her for any help/support and thirdly I had many other such experiences with her, when her words changes during changing circumstances. But surprisingly, she was the one encouraging me to take it forward during the initial stages of that idea evolution. These types of Friends can be called Fun-loving friends as termed by one of my dear friend (http://peterabin.wordpress.com/). I would recommend Abin Peter as an upcoming Writer.

But the one I mentioned above, she was there with during my difficult situations, I am obliged to her, thats true. Except one part, we both are two extremes. We need them also in our lives. 

So, I believe in situations like above the quote mentioned at the start of this page counts valuable,  “The test of courage comes when we are in the minority. The test of tolerance comes when we are in the majority.”

In situations when we form part of the majority. God!! Our tolerance level gets tested, sometimes like being in furnace. But, to explain that I'm not much interested you know ;) 

I believe in Minority; as thats the place where things happen, where risk is, where more profit lies, where you are the boss, you enjoy the success though late.

Hence, I'm in for this Transition. This year, my pledge is to go against all odds! To acheive what I was been called for! To give wings to my dreams in life! To fly away! To be what I wanted to be, I want to be.

I Trust the One Above, My God in Him I trust. I have Him with me, I will fly! He is my Sheperd, He will uplift me and guide me to the place I must travel, where He had already drafted. As without, Him I am nothing and with Him I am Eveything!

Anyways, keep posting your comments so that I can improve on my philosophies, and share more insights!!   

CROSSING THE STREAM

I have been awaiting to be yr 2013, to start my blog again. But little did I knew that it should start from a poem like scribbling written waiting in GM's cabin after handing over my Resignation letter. My GM who couldn't accept it went to discuss with other management team asking me to wait in his cabin.

So here goes, my scribblings...again, coined from own life!.

 CROSSING THE STREAM

Deciding amidst dificulties is the most difficult choice.

Yes. I know.

The anguish and pain I went thrugh;

Is the hardest of all.

Since seven months, I'm in this deep waters;

With no hopes of a single rescue to find the shore.

Now, alas it seems to pass the dawn...To a new shore.

Brightness of the shore, of that promised land do I see -

Yes, there awaits the land of hopes and happiness.

Went through the waves of harshness; 

                        thoughts of discomfort;

                                   words of hatred.

The wild fire caused by a single spark...of a least expected stick.

My heart..burdened with this heaviness;

Like fallen in deep waters, like being in a desert.

My surroundings, structures I tried to build-up;

Yep, its them! They only has instilled this feeling and given me this moment.

I waited...So Long..

I waited so long like looking for streams in the desert.

But, nowhere did I find a single drop of hope.

Except for one.

Except for one drop of hope and motivation;

Who itself in truth required motivation and hope to get along.

Who knowingly/unknowingly happened to be the Prey - 

The Prey of the 'deep waters'.

All happenings from Past three months can be quoted to mould this decision of mine.

Made me to choose this decision;

With this hardness and heaviness.

Amidst unprofessional and heartless community,

I survived this ocean, the deep waters.

And now I'm getting the call...the time itself is calling;

To call this stream.

To find a new path.

I do wish, let there be new streams for this community,

Let there be new hopes and new heights.

But, let me to choose this stream.

For my time is knocking at my door.

Asking me to bid adieu.

As I do not belong  to this place.

As I am not meant to be here. 

I am not meant to be here.

Let me, to cross this stream.

Written during 11:30 - 12:30 Indian timing.

If you cant change your fate, change your attitude!

Behind every great saying, there lies the experience of the person faced. People always experience one or the other kind of situation either pleasant or unhappy. If you cant change your fate, change your attitude, simple but when practiced very much effective. Life is always favors something/someone and turns out others. The difference life always shows, yep, maybe fate has taken control of some peoples life so much that, we even feel disheartened many times. It is definite that we cannot change fate. Fate; some say it is all what God has already written, others would say its all because of how planets take control of your birth signs, again some believe its all how you see life and react to each situation you face which determines your fate. Well all are right in their own beliefs. But, the smartest people would definitely choose the last one I suppose.

Something happened and you blame it all on the God who has written everything beforehand. Something happened and you blame it all the planets and time. Something happens and you yourself sits and things on the situation, how it happened and analyzing where things went wrong and trying to rectify all which happened, and facing the situation boldly. This is attitude. This attitude only can lead you to success. Coz, just sitting and thinking on all what has happened and cursing your fate only can aggravate this fate of yours. But rather taking that first step in faith, and deciding to take hold of your life, your fate itself - with a positive and brave heart changes your complete attitude and altitude which will definitely change your character thereby making you a completely different and special person in the eyes of everyone as well as in your own eyes and spirit.

Hitler made it. K R Narayanan did it. Helen Keller proved it. A K Antony showed it. Everyone if decides to change the attitude, you definitely can change your fate. It now became vice-versa no? Perfect!

Pride should consist in doing your job in the best possible manner.

How this diary did knew about what will happen today at office or what all things I might be thinking by today evening? This is what I thought first when I opened my diary on 21st Jan 2011, coz for every day there is a good quote written on it. Its all about my work. Anyways, we lost almost 7 lakh this month, where we could have made easy billings of 10 lakh, which would have landed in 25000 rs as incentive. Among the 7 offer rejects 3 were mine, rest shared by individual colleagues. This was the golden opportunity to increase my performance record, which now turned out to be a messed up situation. 3 of them were very much interested with the pay offered but, 2 of them ended up asking much more and 1 now saying he was never even interested for this. My TL didn’t shout at me till now but, had a team meeting were it was been discussed and asking me explanation for the offer rejects. My points couldn’t convince them, cant blame my team neither my boss, but just my time that’s all. Anyways it’s a big loss for the management, my team and the greatest for me. This really affected my performance today, couldn’t concentrate and was feeling insecure about the other candidates who are in the pipeline. What next moment brings is the most difficult part.


All my pride, the comfort I was feeling with my work environment and the company, started making me feel much suffocated. Maybe I shouldn’t stay here longer, maybe the time has come to get married, maybe I should start looking for some other kind of jobs, maybe I should have some break,maybe, maybe. Thoughts started running through my heard as if someone is talking or shouting beside me and me also shouting-shouting. As if life is de-motivating me, as if life is laughing on me. When things go wrong, your thoughts will be many, you will start thinking from the 1st failure you might’ve faced, till now. Also about what all you may loose tomorrow. Not even being able to concentrate on any one. Nothing is different with me. I was feeling damn bad, about everything.

I felt like my God is angry with me, or maybe wants to convey me something. Decided to fill today’s page in ma diary after my usual small prayer. Todays thought moved me really. “Pride should consist in doing your job in the best possible manner”. Great thought for today’s happening, I understood. I do my job with complete sincerity, I never process any profile just for the heck of putting a profile. But, when things turned around like this, I was feeling very much discouraged. Once I opened this diary and read this thought, I felt as if this was written for me, that much relaxation it gave me. My fault is not there, so I shouldn’t get disheartened. Rather, I must feel pride on myself, I am doing my job in the best possible manner that I can do. I am doing my best I know, I need to prove this. Now I'm waiting for that great day.

Better late than Never

Wow! So now I'm in 2011. Again God blessed me with the priviledged to reach upto this year. Tagged my heading to 'Waiting for a blessed yr 2011' in Orkut, lets see what all blessings am I gonna get this year. Whether it'll be the same as 2010, or this year shows me something great. I suppose this year must bring many good news, so is it should be. :)

Promise Verse which I got for this yr 2011 is from Deuteronomy 28:6, "Blessed shall thou be when thou comest in, and blessed shall thou be when thou goest out". What more promise should I need to look forward in the coming yr? We have this system is our church, all the members/people present in the church for the wholenight prayer/Watchnight Service will be getting a verse from The Holy Bible, which will be your promise verse for the next yr. Always I've got the best verses I am eligible to receive. So hoping for the best dis yr too.

My last yr was never an easy one. Anyways I am very happy that the end was gr8 when compared to the start. I had started with hopes as usual, but I was looking out for job and obviuosly enjoying the lazy days at home, ma sweet home. It was all without an idea of how things will be. I also had some bad times in between, where I felt very much disastrous. But, the end was awesome. I had a job which I got through mine own efforts, a 10 digit salary, a small apartment which I'd taken on rent, dearest frds I've always cherished, happily living on my own. All these were my dreams, God showed His care and kindness on me once again as He always did with me. There wee many times, I felt that things are moving very bad around me, hopeless are the situations, but He never left me alone, showed me those verses which could build me up again on a stronger faith, make me more bold and courageous, giving me confidence that I can survive amidst whatever situation I have or am going to face. My Jesus is Alive and His love and care is all that I need to live in this world(definitely I need ma family and friends which also God has given me the best I believe). I am happy with everything that I have than those I had wanted and dont have.

Thanks to all my lovely friends and relations I've now and those I ever had, whether they are a part of me now or not, but many of whom I have met and shared some or other kind of friendship has taught me many lessons to succeed in life. All of them directly or indirectly have helped me in becoming a better human being, from where I was to what I am now.

Most awaited day in 2010

Today was my first performance appraisal day at workplace. My first job, ma first appraisal meeting, had lots of doubts regarding how the meeting will be, n all. But, ma God did for me. It went very much gud far ahead than wat I had thought would become.I wanted the hike before I enter 2011. That was a prayer I kept, b4 ma Lord, Jesus gave ma a sign for gud. I am soo happy also, with ma new responsibilities; again I pray and hope in mine new responsibilities also I perform well.

Though mine is a small HR firm, I love the work that I do, the people I interact with, the colleagues I have, the fun we have. Its all small-small things, many times I had ma TL shouting, but it has only build me to be more responsible and powerful and also reach ma ultimate goal, the perfection in ma work.

I wish myself happiness and prosperity through ma career and life ahead.. lolz.. :)

Travelling Back...

Thoughts are been getting shattered
And things roughly going
Dreams came and went
As stories go untold and some lives forgotten

Feelings and emotions do conquer me always
Making me harder even to act upon.
Thoughts are so deep but situations hollow
Making me count all the time.

All my thoughts and beliefs went rotten
As just some illusions happen so often
Life constantly turned its visage
While I was heading something

This time too fate took clutch of me
What had I believed and with what am I faced now
Life… again back at the junction
Where I never ever would like to end or even wait
Despondently I’ve reached back to that phase


Life…oh life… take me up in thine hands
Let me, to travel back to where I once belonged
Oh….the thought itself lifts me up
With contemplation of that happiness
Which I had happened to experience

No…its not just memories
I would like to receive from you…my life
I want…you to make me as strong as the wind
Not to destroy lives….but to have confidence in self.

Life…oh my life….meld me up in thine hands…
Bring back in me…My old self…
To be myself…only wish I will welcome to receive

I do feel every moment I am missing my old self. I only wanted a change in me, but situations itself made such a change but that was kinda drastic...when started trying a change I never ever had thought, I would become someone to occupy a seat and watch around from being the happy go lucky spontenous one. The thought of making myself simple never made me think that it would make me sit in a corner. Now I am feeling I need to be myself; with that activeness and cheerfulness. I'm feeling everythin too boring now.. Life is one God's gift, it must be fully lived, with spreading all love and care to evry1 around.

Pretty true no?

There comes a time in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, and who always will. So don't worry about the people from your past, because there is a reason they didn't make it to your future.
 Pretty true no?..... I was someone who used to keep on thinking about the the good times I had, more than good times that is on the way. But I changed myself, coz afterward life itself taught me, no Glenda no...you were wrong.....all that has happened were for good only, and all that is to happen prettier and much more awesome. Wow'...