Pride should consist in doing your job in the best possible manner.

How this diary did knew about what will happen today at office or what all things I might be thinking by today evening? This is what I thought first when I opened my diary on 21st Jan 2011, coz for every day there is a good quote written on it. Its all about my work. Anyways, we lost almost 7 lakh this month, where we could have made easy billings of 10 lakh, which would have landed in 25000 rs as incentive. Among the 7 offer rejects 3 were mine, rest shared by individual colleagues. This was the golden opportunity to increase my performance record, which now turned out to be a messed up situation. 3 of them were very much interested with the pay offered but, 2 of them ended up asking much more and 1 now saying he was never even interested for this. My TL didn’t shout at me till now but, had a team meeting were it was been discussed and asking me explanation for the offer rejects. My points couldn’t convince them, cant blame my team neither my boss, but just my time that’s all. Anyways it’s a big loss for the management, my team and the greatest for me. This really affected my performance today, couldn’t concentrate and was feeling insecure about the other candidates who are in the pipeline. What next moment brings is the most difficult part.


All my pride, the comfort I was feeling with my work environment and the company, started making me feel much suffocated. Maybe I shouldn’t stay here longer, maybe the time has come to get married, maybe I should start looking for some other kind of jobs, maybe I should have some break,maybe, maybe. Thoughts started running through my heard as if someone is talking or shouting beside me and me also shouting-shouting. As if life is de-motivating me, as if life is laughing on me. When things go wrong, your thoughts will be many, you will start thinking from the 1st failure you might’ve faced, till now. Also about what all you may loose tomorrow. Not even being able to concentrate on any one. Nothing is different with me. I was feeling damn bad, about everything.

I felt like my God is angry with me, or maybe wants to convey me something. Decided to fill today’s page in ma diary after my usual small prayer. Todays thought moved me really. “Pride should consist in doing your job in the best possible manner”. Great thought for today’s happening, I understood. I do my job with complete sincerity, I never process any profile just for the heck of putting a profile. But, when things turned around like this, I was feeling very much discouraged. Once I opened this diary and read this thought, I felt as if this was written for me, that much relaxation it gave me. My fault is not there, so I shouldn’t get disheartened. Rather, I must feel pride on myself, I am doing my job in the best possible manner that I can do. I am doing my best I know, I need to prove this. Now I'm waiting for that great day.

Better late than Never

Wow! So now I'm in 2011. Again God blessed me with the priviledged to reach upto this year. Tagged my heading to 'Waiting for a blessed yr 2011' in Orkut, lets see what all blessings am I gonna get this year. Whether it'll be the same as 2010, or this year shows me something great. I suppose this year must bring many good news, so is it should be. :)

Promise Verse which I got for this yr 2011 is from Deuteronomy 28:6, "Blessed shall thou be when thou comest in, and blessed shall thou be when thou goest out". What more promise should I need to look forward in the coming yr? We have this system is our church, all the members/people present in the church for the wholenight prayer/Watchnight Service will be getting a verse from The Holy Bible, which will be your promise verse for the next yr. Always I've got the best verses I am eligible to receive. So hoping for the best dis yr too.

My last yr was never an easy one. Anyways I am very happy that the end was gr8 when compared to the start. I had started with hopes as usual, but I was looking out for job and obviuosly enjoying the lazy days at home, ma sweet home. It was all without an idea of how things will be. I also had some bad times in between, where I felt very much disastrous. But, the end was awesome. I had a job which I got through mine own efforts, a 10 digit salary, a small apartment which I'd taken on rent, dearest frds I've always cherished, happily living on my own. All these were my dreams, God showed His care and kindness on me once again as He always did with me. There wee many times, I felt that things are moving very bad around me, hopeless are the situations, but He never left me alone, showed me those verses which could build me up again on a stronger faith, make me more bold and courageous, giving me confidence that I can survive amidst whatever situation I have or am going to face. My Jesus is Alive and His love and care is all that I need to live in this world(definitely I need ma family and friends which also God has given me the best I believe). I am happy with everything that I have than those I had wanted and dont have.

Thanks to all my lovely friends and relations I've now and those I ever had, whether they are a part of me now or not, but many of whom I have met and shared some or other kind of friendship has taught me many lessons to succeed in life. All of them directly or indirectly have helped me in becoming a better human being, from where I was to what I am now.