Most awaited day in 2010

Today was my first performance appraisal day at workplace. My first job, ma first appraisal meeting, had lots of doubts regarding how the meeting will be, n all. But, ma God did for me. It went very much gud far ahead than wat I had thought would become.I wanted the hike before I enter 2011. That was a prayer I kept, b4 ma Lord, Jesus gave ma a sign for gud. I am soo happy also, with ma new responsibilities; again I pray and hope in mine new responsibilities also I perform well.

Though mine is a small HR firm, I love the work that I do, the people I interact with, the colleagues I have, the fun we have. Its all small-small things, many times I had ma TL shouting, but it has only build me to be more responsible and powerful and also reach ma ultimate goal, the perfection in ma work.

I wish myself happiness and prosperity through ma career and life ahead.. lolz.. :)

Travelling Back...

Thoughts are been getting shattered
And things roughly going
Dreams came and went
As stories go untold and some lives forgotten

Feelings and emotions do conquer me always
Making me harder even to act upon.
Thoughts are so deep but situations hollow
Making me count all the time.

All my thoughts and beliefs went rotten
As just some illusions happen so often
Life constantly turned its visage
While I was heading something

This time too fate took clutch of me
What had I believed and with what am I faced now
Life… again back at the junction
Where I never ever would like to end or even wait
Despondently I’ve reached back to that phase


Life…oh life… take me up in thine hands
Let me, to travel back to where I once belonged
Oh….the thought itself lifts me up
With contemplation of that happiness
Which I had happened to experience

No…its not just memories
I would like to receive from you…my life
I want…you to make me as strong as the wind
Not to destroy lives….but to have confidence in self.

Life…oh my life….meld me up in thine hands…
Bring back in me…My old self…
To be myself…only wish I will welcome to receive

I do feel every moment I am missing my old self. I only wanted a change in me, but situations itself made such a change but that was kinda drastic...when started trying a change I never ever had thought, I would become someone to occupy a seat and watch around from being the happy go lucky spontenous one. The thought of making myself simple never made me think that it would make me sit in a corner. Now I am feeling I need to be myself; with that activeness and cheerfulness. I'm feeling everythin too boring now.. Life is one God's gift, it must be fully lived, with spreading all love and care to evry1 around.